So, it has been a long time since a last post and I am sorry for that. I wish I could say I was busy, or traveling across the world on some long voyage, but I can’t. Going to Oregon and back in five days doesn’t count for three months of absentness. I frankly have been busy living my life without proper time management.
Today I decided to update my readers of what I have been doing with my relationship with God. The other day, my youth group leader, Ben Potter, asked us all to give about ten minutes each morning in solid bible reading time. He wanted us to keep each other in the youth group responsible in the word, and also be acknowledgeable about what God is teaching us as we read.
Yesterday I woke up with good intentions, I stumbled to the Alarm clock at 6:15am, and I turned on all the lights in my room. I got my bible and a notebook. I sat down on my couch and covered myself in a blanket, and then cracked open my bible to Matthew, a book of the bible I have been stuck in for about 2 months. With eager enthusiasm I began reading about the beheading of John the Baptist, and what a wonderful thing to read about that early in the morning. But soon my thoughts drifted. My eyes were beginning to become heavy. My thoughts of closing my eyes for “prayer” sounded appealing, and soon I did that very thing I wished I hadn’t. I fell asleep.
After a dream I cannot remember ended, I woke up looking to the clock on my dresser. 7:55am. “Shoot!” I had slept through the whole hour of time I purposely set aside for reading in the Bible. “Why Chris, why?” was in my mind, and for the rest of the day I did not pick up my bible except to stack it in a pile of other books.
As much as I hate to admit it, my heart was not in the right place. My Idea was if I don’t give God attention in my allotted time in the morning, than I missed my chance.
This is something I need to work on. God is omnipresent, meaning he is everywhere at any time, so why don’t I give him the same attention. Why is it so hard for me to love God as much as he loves me? Well, I am not perfect, but I do not think I should use that as an excuse. I do not cling to God’s love, or His Word, because I have sin in my life telling me I do not need him to be fulfilled. This is a WRONG idea and needs to be correct. I cannot forgive my sin or save myself from eternal suffering. For that, I need God.
So today I am trying to live with God in mind. I need Him and I also need lots of prayer.
I need to surround myself with him so that the temptations of “you don’t need God’ or “I can do all thing through myself, who strengthens me” will be weakened in my mind.
The Real Simple:
Life’s been getting me down and I was living without help from God. I am trying to seek God before everything now.
It’s Been Real
Today I decided to update my readers of what I have been doing with my relationship with God. The other day, my youth group leader, Ben Potter, asked us all to give about ten minutes each morning in solid bible reading time. He wanted us to keep each other in the youth group responsible in the word, and also be acknowledgeable about what God is teaching us as we read.
Yesterday I woke up with good intentions, I stumbled to the Alarm clock at 6:15am, and I turned on all the lights in my room. I got my bible and a notebook. I sat down on my couch and covered myself in a blanket, and then cracked open my bible to Matthew, a book of the bible I have been stuck in for about 2 months. With eager enthusiasm I began reading about the beheading of John the Baptist, and what a wonderful thing to read about that early in the morning. But soon my thoughts drifted. My eyes were beginning to become heavy. My thoughts of closing my eyes for “prayer” sounded appealing, and soon I did that very thing I wished I hadn’t. I fell asleep.
After a dream I cannot remember ended, I woke up looking to the clock on my dresser. 7:55am. “Shoot!” I had slept through the whole hour of time I purposely set aside for reading in the Bible. “Why Chris, why?” was in my mind, and for the rest of the day I did not pick up my bible except to stack it in a pile of other books.
As much as I hate to admit it, my heart was not in the right place. My Idea was if I don’t give God attention in my allotted time in the morning, than I missed my chance.
This is something I need to work on. God is omnipresent, meaning he is everywhere at any time, so why don’t I give him the same attention. Why is it so hard for me to love God as much as he loves me? Well, I am not perfect, but I do not think I should use that as an excuse. I do not cling to God’s love, or His Word, because I have sin in my life telling me I do not need him to be fulfilled. This is a WRONG idea and needs to be correct. I cannot forgive my sin or save myself from eternal suffering. For that, I need God.
So today I am trying to live with God in mind. I need Him and I also need lots of prayer.
I need to surround myself with him so that the temptations of “you don’t need God’ or “I can do all thing through myself, who strengthens me” will be weakened in my mind.
The Real Simple:
Life’s been getting me down and I was living without help from God. I am trying to seek God before everything now.
It’s Been Real
